it was a beautiful day for a trip to the artomatic, i managed to stay from 6 til 11.. and once i got out, reality appeared stranger than ever to me.
今天又熬夜看了不能说的•秘密。虽然里面台湾人不分男女，说话都细细的，这个我实在是受不了. 虽然这里面搀杂了一些科幻。 虽然这是周董的处女作。但是这电影里的钢琴曲实在是让我心动了。我对音乐跟大多数人面对电脑代码一样，‘看’不懂，读不出，也无法欣赏。上天偏偏让我的听力无法去判别，去陶醉。只知道好和坏，有很多次，因为音量放得太响而影响旁人，从而，音质也变的毛躁。。。 想多了。。走题了。。 看来我把这电影当音乐品来看了。

everything hit me once i pressed the shutter release… drown with the memories i’ve had with this camera. like time travel, being sucked up in wormholes. and all of sudden here i am again, with the new 5D just like the beginning. let’s go at it again, this time to the FUTure!

this afternoon, i received this lukewarm package from the vendor, my hands were shaking… this… this is the moment that i’ve been waiting for… my very own ( but not first dslr ) for some time. unpacking the camera was like getting a getting sugar rush.. so high. giggling non-stop and in no time [...]

���知道从什么时候起，开始喜欢看香港的旧电影。常常在深夜，看那些有小雪花闪的屏幕，听那些用粤语慢慢讲过的对白。也不知从何时起，空暇时候对香港的记忆便溢满心房。就好像兰桂坊那些琥珀般流转的灯光，音乐响起，无问明天。我其实并不喜欢香港，那个港岛太小了，小到承载不了我想俯瞰辽阔山脉的梦想。喜欢那里或许真的只是一个借口。一个逃亡的借口。
借口。
我想起了《阿飞正传》中养母扔给张国荣文件时候说，好，现在我告诉你你的生母。这不过是你这些年来自甘堕落的借口，现在，我看你再来用什么借口。其实人们都只是靠借口在生存，比如以前受过伤害所以不再相信，以前失望过所以不在期望。这些借口的屏障掩盖了脆弱和不堪，说借口的人也许并非不清楚这不过是条逃遁生活的小路，却依旧选择让自己好过些，正如同向生活撒了一个娇。
可是，我们在等待谁来批准，谁来原谅，谁来宽恕呢。
—-2008-04-24 Kaolo
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逃亡的借口。。不错。。我觉得我就像在预备着我从美国的逃亡，这个永远让我陌生的地方不让我再对她有任何欲望和寄托了。 偶尔每天在自己家门口附近随便拍几张照片就好，这样我也能满足了。没有多少的幻想和太多的希望， 就是梦再怎么破碎，也不会让自己心碎。实际上，一个人这样让自己克制下去，并没有什么需要活下去的意义。废话不多说了.

someone asked me this from facebook
yo hui, im curious if you are pro china or pro tibet being that you were born from china yourself…just wondering what are your thoughts. you know in sf today there were many protestors blocking the olympics torch run and many pro china and pro tibet people clashed in the [...]

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sometimes i wonder, what is it that leads me to paint? is it the mind, or it’s the heart? or it’s just pure feelings that leads me. i know i can make stuff looks too abstract for most, but this is what i see, and how i feel. nothing realistic would make sense to me, [...]

I was never a big fan for working in a environment where i have to use shiny hard shoes, skimpy suites, and a tie to kill you slowly. sure the full dress me up game makes one looks good, but coding, designing, making a creative product is never going to work for me.